Monday, June 13, 2011

A Choice Moment

As I sit and reflect over my young life, I wonder how it is that we so effortlessly get things wrong, and so arduously get them right.  Or, is that just me?  I've made countless mistakes in the mere 31 years I've been alive, and will make plenty more in the years to come, but I wonder what would happen if we stopped and stood still in each of our moments, just long enough to recognize that in everything, we're given a choice.  I was faced earlier with a moment where I did just that.  After asking God for His help during a four day time of need, I finally felt the strong Hand of both love and conviction reach down inside of me and halt me where I stood.  I suddenly remembered that what I was in wasn't just a moment; it was a choice, and what I chose would either draw me closer to Him or pull me further away.  I chose Him.

We rarely stop to think about the choices we make the moment we're faced with making them, yet a foundational truth about the outcome of our choices is this - in each one, we're either drawn closer to God or pulled further away.  Before I made a commitment to serve the Lord, I scarcely gave Him a thought.  In fact, on even my best days I rarely gave thought to anyone but myself.  It seems selfishness is the preferred method of operation for most people, myself included, but I'm learning that to choose God, I have to completely deny myself - quite the hard pill to swallow when selfishness is but all I've known.  I have a dear friend who once told me she wished she could "flip the switch" to suddenly believe in God, thus denying her claims to Atheism.  Interestingly, I've had days when I wished I could also flip a switch, but for the reversal of hers.  It saddens and pains me to even acknowledge that I've felt that at times, but the truth remains - the life lived out for God is far from easy; on the contrary, I've never lived a more challenging life.

The difference is, I have the beautiful gift of eternal life with my maker, but isn't it interesting that even that came down to a matter of personal choice? I chose this life and I chose to believe in Him, His Son, and the gift of the cross. As an extension of that, I chose to live a life of servitude to Him, and although I often get it wrong, the few times I get it right bring a joy and peace that can't even compare to what I knew before I "flipped the switch" of choosing to know Him.  Even flipping the switch was a choice. Though my most recent posts have reflected an internal turmoil and struggle, I wouldn't have my life any other way.  God always gets me through what I can't get through on my own.  Growing with and in Him is the most amazing process I've ever experienced, but I would be lying if I said it didn't have its dark days.  It's part of the journey, and at the end of the day, as long as I know I chose Him, I'll always be okay.

Live your life in a constant state of awareness over the choices you make.  Every choice, no matter how small, takes you in a direction either towards God or away from Him.  Learn to see each of your daily moments as a choice, but don't ever hold on to regrets when you choose the wrong thing.  Simply choose what's right in the next moment. Be made better by your choices, both the good and the bad, and know that only with God is this possible (Matthew 19:26).  Examine your crossroads and choose wisely. Only one path leads to God.

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.  Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.  James 1:2-4    

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  2. Thank you, Jayne - and thank you again for the gift! I love, love, love Bath and Body Works!

  3. Dear Heart - just happened to dial in today, and behold: an epistle about what we call the "Slight Edge" (a book by Jeff Olson)! It seems that, like you say, all life is about the little daily choices we make, and all are easy to do AND easy not to do, but the key is, if it is a choice to grow, or a choice to go after a tough goal, it always will seem easier to NOT do it. Yet those who make those little painful positive calls will experience what we all want: "success" in an endeavor. And, since the choices are daily, over time they compound! We should always look at a choice from an eternal perspective, and realize that we want compound interest working for us, not against us, and that the seemingly insignificant choice of the moment, compounded, will make a huge difference in the long run. Just relate all this to the subject of health: if you want great health, you must make a whole bunch of healthy choices during the day, or you will, over time, create your own diseases and problems. Thanks for some tremendous insight, DH!