Thursday, June 23, 2011
The Butterfly Effect
As the trials of the last couple of weeks have left me questioning my faith, life, and overall purpose, I find the arrival of these miraculous creatures to be a perfect parallel to what I've been enduring. The interesting part now is the outcome. Will I let what I've been experiencing make me beautiful? Or, will I let it destroy everything I am? I choose to be transformed into something more beautiful, but as God has plainly shown me, I can't do it on my own. I'm realizing that no matter how close we are to the Lord, our natural tendency is always going to be contradictory to what He has in mind during times of testing. I have fought against Him, cried to Him, and pleaded with Him over the last two weeks in ways I never have before, but it all comes down to one thing - the outcome. In what ways will I be made better, and will I still love Him and devote my life to Him if the outcome isn't what I would choose?
As it turns out, we wont be made better if we don't choose Him. In fact, during moments where I chose other than Him, I sprained my wrist, took hard falls down a mountain, and even lost my new kitten, Maisie. I loved that cat. When I didn't choose Him, I didn't have peace, and when I didn't choose Him, I was not only not made better, but I was made worse. In moments without Him, I'm not someone I even recognize, so I've discovered that whether or not His outcome is a picture that matches the one I've painted in my mind, I will love Him and devote myself to Him even more. Only then will I be made more beautiful.
Are you going through something today that puts you on a team opposite God's? Have you lost someone you love? Do you struggle with addiction? Are you going through a divorce? Have you or someone you know been abused either physically or emotionally? Maybe you're just lost and don't know where to go. Whatever trials you're facing, God already knows about them and He's waiting to transform you into someone more beautiful than you already are. Nothing enters our life that doesn't first pass through His hands. (1 Peter 1:5-7). Sometimes just knowing that He's the author of all life is enough to make even the most heartbreaking situations beautiful. Don't let the trials you face destroy you, and don't dwell so long on what isn't that you miss what actually is. God never promised an easy journey, but He did promise an amazing one. Let the butterfly effect happen in your own life. Embrace the things that hurt you as opportunities to grow closer to Him and become more beautiful than you've ever before been. When you think you can't endure anymore, look up. He's there promising to turn your pain into beauty. Let Him.
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13
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